martes, 2 de septiembre de 2025

A Descent to the Center of Our Wounds: The Journey of Pakari

When the lights dimmed and the curtain opened, what appeared before us was not merely a theatrical performance: it was a living essay on the tensions of our age. The Journey of Pakari presents itself as a fantastic tale, but its true strength lies in how it speaks of the present with a starkness rarely permitted to so-called “family theater.” Behind the puppets, the lighting, and the specially composed music, a disquieting question pulsed: what are we doing to our world, and how willing are we to rebel against the ways of life imposed upon us?

From the very first chords, it was clear that the production sought no refuge in lightness or escapism. The music, composed as a score of shifting vibrations that oscillated between the playful and the somber, created a space not only for imagination but for confrontation. The lyrics, at times akin to oral poetry, hurled questions that echoed beyond the stage: “What would you do if one day everything changed?” This was no invitation to fantasy, but a challenge to recognize the fragility of our certainties.

To witness The Journey of Pakari in Arica was to enter a territory where fable and social critique interlace. The staging borrowed from the aesthetic of fairy tale, but its images—the tree weeping over the loss of its roots and its solitude, the world devoured by plastic, the trial of creatures who refuse to become what is expected of them—offered no escape. On the contrary, they forced us to recognize that the fable is us, that the dystopia is here, and that Pakari’s true journey is that of a society still uncertain whether it possesses the courage to alter its fate.

Music as the marrow of the work

For someone who lives through music, what first struck me was the sheer sonority. The compositions (all original) were not accompaniment but atmospheres in their own right. Each vibration opened a different imaginative passage: at times childlike and playful, at times surreal, even dreamlike. The live duet became an organism that seemed to modulate the breathing of the audience.

The lyrics were pure poetry: lines such as “What would you do if one day everything changed?” pierced the surface and sank into our most fragile convictions. And when Pakari’s grandparents sang verses suggesting one must step out of the shadows to seek the light, the theater turned into the confidant of something greater: the question of whether we are capable of escaping the most painful narratives we carry. I cried—as a child and as a woman—because in that moment the stage returned to me the echo of my own battles.

A dramaturgy of relentless metaphors

Pakari enters a parallel universe that is not entirely other but a deformed—and thus precise—reflection of our present. One of the most haunting moments was that of the weeping willow. The voice that embodied the tree’s lament struck me to the core, for it spoke of deforestation, of the severed underground communication that we know trees share through their roots. It was an ecological and cosmic lament that felt physical: every sob seemed to ripple across the audience’s skin.

The play also dared to sketch a political map: this world of cement and plastic, ruled by a fictitious queen conjured by a cowardly mayor, was a fierce portrait of how authorities shirk responsibility and justify devastation with empty rhetoric. The repetitive chant—“Plástic-oh, plástic-oh, plástic-oh…”—functioned as a grotesque mantra, returning to us the image of our own unrestrained, thoughtless consumption.

And like in Greek mythology, there appeared a reinvented Charon: a ferryman who charged tears as the toll to cross a polluted lake. The scene, dense with symbolism, reminded us that our grief and losses are the real currency with which we pay for devastation.

Identity and resistance

Beyond ecological and political denunciation, the play reached a level of philosophical complexity that distances it from the label of “children’s theater.” The trial Pakari conducts over three creatures—a caterpillar who refuses to fly, a dung beetle who longs to be an artist rather than roll excrement, and a spider who yearns to weave from imagination rather than repetition—approached allegory in its purest sense. There, clearly, lay the dilemmas of adolescence and early adulthood: the rupture with inherited expectations, the fear of freedom, the desire to reinvent one’s essence.

They were not merely fantastical creatures: they were mirrors of any young person who discovers they do not want to be what parents, teachers, or society demand. That gesture of resistance, embodied on stage, transforms the play into a political and philosophical lesson of the first order. It reminds us that the structures which define us can also become prisons, and that breaking them is not an act of ingratitude but of survival. For at stake is not only individual identity but the universal question: to what extent do we have the courage to abandon the safety of the known and invent ourselves anew?

An ambitious and necessary spectacle

The scenic richness was overwhelming. The play of lights created atmospheres that seemed to breathe with the drama, the voices rose without fissures, the production took risks in every detail. The excess of noise was itself part of the chaos the piece sought to represent in those hours of confrontation with the mirror. The Journey of Pakari is an ambitious work, conceived to surpass the threshold of the local and to converse with universal theatrical traditions. Yet what moved me most was the way it achieved this from Arica, with its own roots, with an aesthetic born of its territory and yet open to a global dialogue.

The Journey of Pakari is not a show for children alone; it is a journey for those willing to look directly at what hurts. For those who still believe art must be unsettling and transformative. For those who can recognize, in a puppet, in a weeping tree, in a grotesque refrain, the possibility of rethinking how we inhabit the world.

Pakari does not travel alone; she drags us with her. And in that dragging, she forces us to ask whether we are willing to stop being what is expected of us in order to become, at last, what we need to be.

jueves, 12 de junio de 2025

The Soft Resistance: Notes from the Mirror Trench

  I’m not interested in seeing a perfect image. Perfection is not only boring
— it’s a lie.

Deborah Turbeville

In modern zoology, a new endangered species has emerged: the woman who doesn’t speak about her body as if it were an investment portfolio. Here stands one of them. Five feet tall, with no interest in sculpted abs or marine collagen creams. My friends talk about workout routines and Zumba sessions as if they were saving the world. I, on the other hand, just try to hold on to a light but substantial conversation without being interrupted or ignored in favor of gossip about surgical procedures, trendy diets, or the latest fitness craze.

In certain social circles, intellectual deviation is seen as a mild dysfunction. A manageable eccentricity. My friends—efficient, socially functional women—manage their bodies with the precision of a corporate protocol: they count centimeters, increase weights, optimize glutes. I, meanwhile, struggle to remember whether I took my allergy pill this morning, but I can recite Plath with the same conviction they bring to intermittent fasting. In that ecosystem, my presence sparks a mix of tenderness and confusion—like finding a poetry book in the middle of a paddle tennis court.

Don’t get me wrong. I have nothing against beauty. The problem is that it seems to be the only thing that matters. It’s no longer about strict diets or physical suffering—everything now comes wrapped in wellness discourse: self-care, emotional balance, "energetic alignment." The body is now worked from a place of self-love, they say. But it’s still an obsession—just one dressed in pastel colors. They meditate to sculpt their abs. They connect with their inner self while doing squats with resistance bands. Aesthetic discipline has dropped its religious tone to adopt a Zen dogma: softer in speech, just as ruthless underneath.

In the contemporary economy, the female body operates like a startup: it requires constant investment, is measured by unstable metrics (BMI, body fat percentage, follower count), and, above all, must deliver aesthetic returns. The average woman no longer has a body; she has a body project. Conversations orbit around continuous improvement, new performance strategies, and a fanatical devotion to visual results. The market rewards specialization. The woman fluent in the technical language of fitness and cosmetics becomes a kind of desire-technologist. She speaks with authority about peptides, serums, collagen types—as if quoting financial algorithms. Meanwhile, cultural conversation—literature, philosophy, music—has been downgraded to a quaint irrelevance, like collecting stamps or speaking Latin. Interesting, yes. But irrelevant. The new social contract is clear: what can’t be photographed doesn’t exist. And if it does, it irritates.

It’s not easy to maintain self-esteem when the canon whispers, every day, that you are insufficient. I say this not from some moral pedestal, as someone who believes herself superior for reading poetry or having a favorite philosopher. I say it from the trenches—as a woman battling not just the mirror, but the silence of invisibility. I don’t expect to change the algorithm. Sometimes, I just want to read in peace without feeling like a cultural fossil. Or at least, to be reminded that having a restless mind is still desirable, even if I don’t have a toned abdomen.

But of course, all of this becomes irrelevant when, at a gathering, someone casually declares that true happiness is having a gym body. That’s when you retreat, order another glass of wine, and smile silently, calculating how many pages of Clarice Lispector you could’ve read in that time—or feeling a mix of pity and discomfort for forcing yourself to stay somewhere you clearly don’t belong. Culture doesn’t slim you down, tan you, or tone your muscles. It only makes you more aware. Which, in these times, is a serious competitive disadvantage.

A restless mind doesn’t trend. It doesn’t have sponsors or viral tutorials. It’s hard to package, nearly impossible to monetize. Ideas, unlike bodies, don’t show up in mirrors. That’s why they feel suspicious—even threatening. No one likes to feel outpaced by a woman who, on top of not fitting into the right size, reads.

So you adapt. You learn to dose yourself. To ration opinions, dilute difficult topics, blend in with wine bottles, mask your lucidity with irony so you won’t come off as intense. Until, every now and then, someone appears with a look, a comment, a genuine question that reminds you you’re not alone. It changes nothing, of course. But for a moment, the wine tastes a little less like surrender.

martes, 20 de agosto de 2013

The dolls’ pendulum


A red dress pouring itself
in the crack of my torn hair
in the rental of my own flesh

The stairs in my stockings -
rung cruel in the mornings
and these worn shoes
flash
after all
as wounds
that remain closed

My Lipstick’s stains
cancel all traces of beauty
as patch measures
on a broken doll
that hangs from the strings
coming out from a dour hymen

Woman Of Troy

Woman of Troy
sin of the world
have mercy on us

The Moment


She strives for maintaining
the beauty of the tenth sense
which is derived from the sacrifice
of a moment of water

Holy wars in the world



Time flashes blink in the fourth verse of life
as the fisherman who was on the road
saw Dionysius devouring the eyes of a risen Christ.

The exaggeration of Constantinople
and the beginnings of the church compress time
when the powder is found
in the middle of nostalgic visions,
in a period that kisses the infinite


The fifth verse of life
reflects
the Crusades
and a false prophet
who attacked the very first empire


life is wasted in two combined particles

The site of a slaughter




100 000 inhabitants of Kiev
buried in the same ravine
in the womb of an ancient woman
sold to the Convent of Terra

Vietnam: 1955
three million souls
appear to be
key moments
in the presence of the concave
in an empty house

Life trickles in front of  my dreams

She boasts of the cranes' immortality




The ideal state of the ancient woman
portrays moments of great victory
and of the tremendous loss
as a result of civilization
where evil has returned to extend
her empty jaws

She seems to start out
from a kaleidoscopic dream state
while a saint whistles a requiem
to Adolf Hitler
after a bunker waved away
Jews in love of the Milky Way

The vigil as bricks
through the window now
the doorbell, a fresh graffiti
love, an empty box

The unnamed aggression
brings us back to the ellipsis
disturbing this reality
and this woman that only
bites her nails
at the threshold of her dreams